Thursday, February 04, 2010

Sooooo, Change of Plans


Given this, we have decided it's not the safest idea to travel this weekend. We're just not sure what is going to hit where, and we are fairly certain we would be traveling through treacherous conditions at some point in our journey. I know the 'burg is going to be hit hard (Montgomery County Public Schools are already closed for tomorrow and NOTHING has happened yet) and many of the people are traveling from that direction. I'm hoping it is rescheduled because I would dearly LOVE to help Bill celebrate.

Today was Catholic Schools Week Teacher Appreciation Day and it was wonderful. :o) My kiddos were such sweetie pies, and I'm now inundated with more chocolate and candy than you can imagine. ;oP I also recieved an Edible Arrangement--as a counter balance to all that sugar?? ;o)

This afternoon was a dress-rehearsal for our Grandparents' Tea, and the K-3 babies were absolutely wonderful. I was thoroughly enjoying myself when they began to sing "Puff the Magic Dragon". That's a harmless, sweet song, right? Yeah, right. I began to tear up and unbeknown to me, from across the gym, Lola saw me wipe a tear away, raced over and had me out of there in an instant.

I can't remember the last time I sobbed like that. My heart was breaking all over again, it was if Hannah's death was fresh and I was only just experiencing it. I made sounds I haven't made in over a year as my heart was ripped from my body. I managed to pull myself together and went and enjoyed the rest of the program.

I work in such a wonderful place. I had no idea the development lady was in her office as I sobbed in the bathroom next door. I came out and she was waiting to give me a huge hug. Then, Lisa came to find me and squeeze me. When I returned to the gym, Bud was waiting for me and gave me another hug. Then, Lola turned and mouthed, "Love you". All the love almost made me lose it again. These people truly love and care about me--what a blessing.

That heartbreak session has left me tired and limp. I'm dragging this evening and still have a grocery trip ahead of me (we are preparing for weekend cruddy weather just in case). I'm almost in tears just thinking about it...

As for Puff, if you think about the song, it's actually quite sad as Puff goes on and on and experiences the loss of Jackie Paper. See, not so harmless after all.

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Today's Sparklies:

1. Lil's new nightgown, a gift from my principal. It's a size 5/6, so it's a bit big, but she loves it. :o) (Diane had purchased it for a cousin who was too big for it and though Lil might enjoy it. How right she was!)
2. My sweet kiddos and Teacher Appreciation Day. Oh, what sweet babies they were today. :o)
3. The dress rehearsal and the singing. The first graders sang a song I sang in first and second grade, and in fact, named my dog after--"I have a dog and her name is Rags. She eats too much and her tummy sags. Her ears flip-flop and her tail wig-wags, and when she walks she zigs and zags..."


No milestones.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

You're easy to love.

Jane
xoxo

Melissa said...

Thats strange, I checked your weather when I saw your post. Saw that Friday was going to be yucky, but clearing. He is saying NY is going to be missed but my area is still saying 8-12 inches between 6pm and 7pm starting tomorrow night. Hopefully your guy is right!

Bailey's Leaf said...

Bummer about missing the weekend, but you'll have more snow. You like snow!

Sometimes those times hit with a surprise flood of tears. It's not so bad to let them roll. I'm glad that you were able to enjoy the singing regardless.

Cookies and candy? Well, thank goodness that the sugar testing came out a-okay, right?!

Have a great snowy weekend!

Melissa said...

My WV was tedious. I just now realized how concerned with the weather I was that I didnt acknowledge your pain. And the happiness through your pain.

Jane is right, you are very easy to love!

Rach said...

Oh, Melissa, you're so sweet. Actually, all three of you are. Thanks! :o)

Rebekah :) said...

love and prayers from nc. hope you get some pretty snow to enjoy again! :)

Erin said...

My heart aches thinking about your crying. I wish I could give you a hug, as you are such a sweet source of inspiration for me. Love you, Rach!

Lindsay said...

Many hugs to you!

As you do so well, you had me in tears. :-)

If you are even half as sweet in person as you are on here - it's quite apparent to me why people care about you as deeply as they do.

Enjoy a quiet weekend at home with your beautiful girl!

Melissa said...

So sorry for your tears and pain.
My eyes are filled with tears reading your entry and feeling your loss of such a wonderful child. I am sending much love and peace to you, Rachael.

Anonymous said...

Hugs.

Jori said...

I'm so happy you have such a wonderful support system. I'm sure your sweet Hannah is always watching over you too.